Not Just Bears

Tomorrow is going to be a hard day without my little girl. Tom always got a card for me and said it was from her. I do miss my mom but growing up with her drinking and acting like a lunatic is really hard to wipe away from your memory. In her last years I had to take care of her all the time because of my worthless brothers. I never got to enjoy being with her. The roles we changed. I took care of her like a parent would. I really do miss my pop more. I really got close to him in his last years. I had to take care of him too. And I would do it all over again if I had too.  

The hummingbirds are back. I also have a pair of bluebirds nesting in the birdhouse on the tree in front of my living room window. They are so beautiful and brilliant. We planted more flowers on Danny's grave yesterday. The deer ate all of the pansies. I'll get a picture posted tomorrow. It really looks nice.

She loved to travel in her Cavalier.It was the only car she would get into.

I really do hope not having Danny gets easier as time moves on..I still think I have to go check on her on the porch still. My friends are doing a good job though of keeping me walking with them and their babies. Val lets me walk her retrievers Holly and Maveric. Kathy lets me walk with her and her baby Gunther. All of my neighbors say that their hearts break when they see me walk without Danny. Her and I walked on this road twice a day for 10 years. She was a very much loved little girl.

Well I thought spring was here but today sure doesn't resemble a spring day. It has been raining all day.That would be tolerable if it was warm. I never wanted the weather to be too warm because Danny couldn't tolerate the heat with her being a husky. With that not being the case anymore I'm ready for hot weather.

On a little bit happier note my ducks are back.They were waiting for me at the backyard gate. They both came running to me.It just amazes me that for 4 years these two come back time and time again.Papa has a certain marking on his chest that I can tell it is him.Just a wonderful feeling to see them each year.I hope they have babies again this year.They bring them to see me. How anyone can look at all of this wildlife and think that God doesn't exist is beyond me. We have deer and fox and ducks and birds galore.This beauty never ceases to amaze me.